I’m sixteen. I’ve spent the last 3 months in a psychiatric hospital due to severe depression, drug addictions and suicide attempts. It didn’t help. I’ve had family therapy, CBT, medications. I’ve tried keeping my mind off things, exercising, everything I can think of.
I’m sick of people thinking I want their sympathy. I’m sick of people going on about how I’m selfish for wanting to die, pathetic for feeling like this. I’ve been raped, forced to take cocaine, lost a baby and been arrested all in the last month. I’m sick of everything. Of course I care about my family and all the rest of that crap that people usually give me. But is it really fair to make me carry on when I can’t do it? I’m looking at spending the rest of my life in and out of mental hospitals because I’m so unstable.
Why shouldn’t I kill myself? Give me one valid reason, really. Because my family will be upset? It’s probably more upsetting to see me run away from everywhere I’m sent, get locked up for police assault and constantly hurt myself.