Resolved Question: Please someone just take sometime to listen? That’s all i need…some advice please..i have no one else.?

I will give you some detail. I’m a 19 year old female, i live in Toronto, i was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder a couple years ago after my cocaine and ecstasy addiction (which is now non-existent). I try to keep away from my medication (lorazepam) unless my anxiety and paranoia becomes unbearable. Right now my situation consists of taking care of my brother and grandma while going to college, doing a field work placement, doing homework and working. My mom works three jobs seven days a week , and my dad is dying with kidney and heart failure i know i can’t change this, but it is still very hard… which is why i take care of everything including cleaning, cooking ..everything you can possibly think of. I also just recently bought myself a car and now have bills to pay for, and rent too…we may lose the house because my dad’s unemployment runs out in december. If we lose the house i may have to move out because we cannot fit 5 people in such a small place. i have no idea how i will ever afford this right now. I’m under a lot of stress, i don’t know how i manage to keep an above 90 average..but i do.My now ex boyfriend of three years is addicted to porn, like actually. Everyday for hours, even if im there or if i leave for a couple hours. But hes no longer helpful in my situation, he cheated on me a couple years ago, i got over it. but he insists on telling me horrible details its driving me insane.LITERALLY! So leaving the relationship was for the best, now i just have zero confidence and self- esteem.
Anyway, i went to the doctor and i have been referred to a psychiatrist. because my thoughts and actions have become obsessive compulsive according to my doctor. But i’ve tried effexor, and celexa they didn’t work in the past. I’m really afraid of depending on an anti-depressant. What should I do, should I take what they give me, or should i let this go on, I’m so depressed, and i’ve never felt so anxious in my life. I have no one to turn to…what do i do? (i’m not suicidal or anything) But i do constantly feel as if i’m in a dream and nothing is real…please help this is getting scary and unbearable. Thanks in advance.
I just wanted to say thank you so much for taking the time to read this you have no idea how much i appreciate it.

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